Facing a fear: Confronting a collaborator
I’ve been working on a project with somebody I know professionally for almost a year now. Originally I was super hyped about it. As with all software motivation came in ebbs and flows but I was making good progress on it.
That was until we discussed monetising it - he wanted to make a crypto token and sell it, to raise funds for the project and then buy back/share profits with the buyers of these tokens in future. He said it’d also get us some initial customers. This makes sense, as when I was younger I found the blockchain space fascinating (I still find the tech interesting to this day, but I’ve felt myself drifting away from the crypto community over time as I’ve matured).
However, as I’ve been nearing the end my motivation to finish the project has been rapidly approaching zero, as while I still fully believe in the project, I don’t believe using crypto to fundraise for it fits with where I currently am - I’m very disillusioned with the space and it feels wrong to use something I don’t fully believe in just for the promise of an easier time and more money.
Tonight, I scheduled the message telling the person all of this to send tomorrow morning, as I can’t bear to send the message now and see the response, as I feel I’ve probably let this person down and could’ve been more honest with myself sooner.
However, I am sure this is the right move - I’ve discussed it with family and friends and they all agree, but perhaps that’s because I’m telling it from my perspective. I’ve known for at least 2 weeks, but I kept asking for second opinions to avoid actually having to do the thing. No going back now though!
Thanks for listening to my ramble. I needed to let this out somewhere and this felt like the right place.